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Owning Oneself, Priestesses, and Bloom Kombucha: #thingsiminlovewith

Things I'm in love with right now.

Book I'm Devouring:

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This is the story of King Arthur told from the perspective of all the women of his life. It's so full of power and magic and delicious details about Druid life and the way of the Priestess. It's also amazing commentary on religions/beliefs. I disappear from this world while reading it. Yum.

Album that Stokes the Fire Within:

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A Tribe Called Red by A Tribe Called Red. They're an electronic DJ collective from Canada known for their mix of hip-hop, reggae, dubstep and First Nations (the predominant indigenous peoples in Canada south of the Arctic Circle) musical traditions.

Go-To Person Lately for All Things Stars and Planets:

Chani Nicholas She's so intelligent, insightful, and oftentimes provides a good giggle with her Facebook posts about planetary activities.

Making the Belly Happy:

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GT's Spring flavor: Bloom. It's so fresh and not too sweet with a hint of floral. (I swear I don't sell for them. It's just THAT yummy.) ;) Get you some!

Inspiration for Owning Who You Are:

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This session I did with the oh-so-awesome Racheal was a little study/reflection on masculine vs. feminine stereotypes and how much the lines blur when it comes to being gender fluid. Empowering stuff. So fun to photograph.

 

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Spring Drunk and Feeling Alive

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Oh, hello, May, you beautiful beast.

Anyone else drunk on Spring? I mean, my goodness. Talk about instant jello the second that sun came out and warmed my winter spirits right up. 

The strange dance of light and dark with these stormy skies the last few days has inspired introspection and solitude, highly recommended before the major surge of mid-spring to early summer hype begins. Spend a few days super tuned-in, maybe by tuning out/turning off/unplugging (whatever works for you!) and use that incredible awareness to hone in on your body's energetic cues. What uplifts your energy and what's draining it? 

Super helpful exercise: Sit in your favorite place, light a candle if you like, breathe deeply for a bit, and take stock of your body's energetic cues. Then, write down two columns: Uplifts and Drains and note what has been uplifting you or draining you recently. Now, set intentions around what will continue to uplift you because who doesn't want to feel empowered? Flood a page with intentions that will uplift you. Once finished, circle what stirs you the most. As you sit on those intentions, make three columns: Mind. Body. Spirit. Pull intentions from your circled words that primarily uplift your mind and put them under that column. Continue from there with the other two columns. Do another circling of what stirs you until you narrow down to 3-5 intentions that will ultimately uplift your mind, body, and spirit throughout the month of May.

My intentions: Alive. Present. Pleasure. Intuitive. Of service.

Reflection: Something about focusing on intentions that specifically uplift me mind, body, and spirit made this exercise even more enjoyable. Maybe it's because being drunk on Spring tends to make me want to ignore all the things (both positive and negative) and just lay in the sun. Lol! But feeding that which uplifts you will surely decrease that which drains you...or at the very least, make the draining stuff less noticeable or easier to handle.

What intentions did you set? Share in the comments!

 

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The Evolution of Love

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Back Story

If you've talked or spent time with me, visited my photography Facebook page, or read past things I've written, you've heard me drop the word love a billion times whether related to self-love, love of our fellow humans, or loving relationships with friends, family, and significant others. I had a friend recently ask me if I could riff on love related to significant others in a future post. I've decided to indulge her and hopefully you find something in here to take with you. Please know that all of this comes from observations within my own relationship and of those around me throughout my adult life thus far.

Musings

In personal or interpersonal connectedness, society makes everything about the physical--the best health practices, exercise routines, and sex-drive--or if it veers from physical, it goes straight to mental--how one should positively affirm, express gratitude, practice emptying ones mind to be a better listener or be less anxious.

What if love is at the crux of personal and interpersonal connectedness? What if physical and mental stuff jumped from that launching point into the spiritual?

Bear with me.

These thoughts started after I read an article written on Helen Fisher's (a biological anthropologist and expert on love) belief that we have evolved with three kinds of love: sex drive, romantic love, and attachment to our partner. According to her, all are intrinsic to our being...basic drives.

While I don't necessarily disagree with her, I felt like the most important of our evolution with love is Spiritual Love. And I'm not talking about love of God or Spirit or the Universe, necessarily, though that's an aspect that isn't unimportant. I'm talking about a kind of love that transcends the other three kinds while still fostering them.

Here's my take.

Evolution of Love

The Sex Drive phase is classic beginning-of-the-relationship hunger for one another. It's here where there's exploration and newness. The unfamiliar territory is exciting and enticing. You only have to give each other tiny nuggets of yourselves for it to be satisfying. This phase of love can be addicting for some, and those who feel the need to continue feeding their sexual hunger will continue finding lovers to fill that need. Those who allow/don't mind when the hunger subsides move into romantic love. 

Romantic Love involves all the cute gifts, sweet nothings/texts/letters, intimate touches, hugs, and kisses, and dates beyond the bedroom (or backseat of a car!). ;) One or both partners want to be sure the other person feels special and valued. As the couple realizes they don't have to try as hard to keep one another, this phase of love can fade or simply transition into attachment to our partner. 

Attached Love is where dedication kicks in. Sometimes this occurs because of children or new pets, sharing an apartment or house, or because the couple decides to marry. Many believe that this is the goal. Those in the dating scene in it for the long haul seek a partner who feels like someone they can marry. But there's more beyond the wedding day and marriage.

Those who may not seek or aren't aware of anything beyond attached love find that the sex-drive has chilled out and romantic love has dwindled or completely disappeared. One or both people in the couple have lost themselves to the relationship, let go of hobbies in favor of fulfilling stereotypical roles of a spouse or parent. Criticism begins to develop. Each person begins to display doubts, fears, and that shadow side of the self their partner may have never seen before. It's here where divorce or splitting up can happen or is discussed because the people in the relationship suddenly say, "What now?"

OR they can fully lay their shit on the table, strip down to their rawest selves, and begin to develop something greater than themselves: Spiritual Love.

Spiritual Love is held above the couple itself. It's realized as compassion, full acceptance of the other person and all their faults, and unconditional support and respect. It's where ego is set aside to hash through what should be fostered or shed for the greater whole of the partnership. It's FULL of patience. It's being okay with walking through this life as two separate beings living separate existences in a shared space and relationship. It's full of trust, honesty, and safety. It sets boundaries and respects them. It favors growth over stagnation, forgiveness over grudges. It doesn't keep tally of screw ups. It's attentive. Communication is full of listening, sharing, and dreaming. Spiritual Love sees the partnership as a separate being working in this world for something greater than itself. 

Through Spiritual Love, the other phases of love come into context again and ebb and flow as life does. The couple sees the other phases as helpful tools in continuing/fostering their basic human needs while holding their spiritual love high. An individual who understands they desire and require this kind of love will get out of or not tolerate abusive relationships or over-compromising ones integrity. Spiritual love marries partnership and self-love. It holds space for growth of the individual AND the couple. It's beautifully dynamic and full of responsibility, but a responsibility worth all the work.

Where do you find yourself in here? And what are your views on love? Comment or send me an email. I'd love to talk more about this with you.

*This is the article I referred to earlier.

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Allow me to introduce myself

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I'm that photographer girl you see around posting photos of other people, sunrises, trees, and cats, with the occasional selfie thrown in the mix. The truth is, I'm introverted as fuck, until you get to know me better, and then I could talk your ear off (just ask my husband). ;)

I'm writing this because I feel compelled to share. I always feel compelled to share. I'm just never sure what it is I'm meant to be sharing with you.

I could tell you that I'm super passionate about food and how it affects our bodies.
I could tell you that I'm a good singer.
I could tell you that my husband and I are disgustingly madly in love still after 13yrs, but those years have included a handful of splitting up scares, big fights, navigating sexlessness and reinvigorating passions, a large amount of deaths, and hosting roommates more than living alone.
I could tell you that I'm gluten free and struggled for years with allergy related physical issues.
I could tell you that I use tarot/oracle cards for guidance when I feel stuck.
I could tell you that I write poetry. 

I just don't have one of those stories many entrepreneurs use to leverage themselves, their business or brand...you know the ones--the Rags to Riches, Come to Jesus Moment, Life Changing Event kinda story. I'm just your average woman and entrepreneur figuring it out as I go.

And sometimes, I get scared shitless because I think I'm not doing it right or that I'm not doing enough. That good ole shadow voice pops in and says, "This isn't enough. You're not making enough, charging enough, doing enough, creative enough, innovative enough, a good enough friend, lover, daughter, granddaughter, sister."

But here's the thing. I take really good care of myself...almost too good because new opportunities that may take me away from my normal self-care routine paralyze me. So, I make big changes slowly, usually, until I see that the coast is clear and all will be well, and then I dive in. I embrace life, sure, but I don't take huge risks. I admire when people can jump in without calculation. That seems freeing...and maybe sometimes stupid, but a little stupidity can make things exciting.

Point is, my self-care routine (morning journaling/reflection, gentle yoga, sometimes rigorous Buti Yoga, afternoon walks) provide opportunities for me to sit with that shadow voice and ask, "Hey, why the hell are you here?" And then we figure it out together.

Because even though I may talk your ear off, I'm also a really good listener. And when all these webinars and advice blogs for entrepreneurs say, "Use your story. Be vulnerable. Let others see you," my thought is, Hi. I'm here. I don't have a "story," but I bet if we hang out, we'll have a ton of shit in common. Because we're human and all just figuring it out as we go. 

So, welcome, and I look forward to knowing you if I don't already (whether during photo shoots or during group/private healing arts sessions). Thanks for listening. Can't wait to listen to you.

Are You Swinging Into 2018 With Me?

Or are you kinda slothin' into the new year? ;)
Regardless, I hope you find yourselves settled since the holidays and not beating yourself up too much for not following through on some of your resolutions or goals. Stick with pats on the back for what you ARE doing.

Happy Stuff
I moved into this year feeling light, free, and clear for the first time since 2014. And I had to give myself a pat on the back and toot my own horn because I nailed last year! Despite all the ups and downs and confusing stuff that entrepreneurship entails, not one of you were disappointed in our time together. You gave me so much praise and love and appreciation that I was floored. Happy you = happy me. 

The Growth
My eye for shots improved. The way I receive and communicate with you all has improved. Not going to lie, even if you never noticed, I used to get a bit clammed up and awkward when initially in anyone's presence! Light banter and small talk scare the crap outta me. Lol! I finally warmed up to all of your kiddos in a way that allowed them to really warm up to me! I've developed a greater deal of patience. And my biggest shift is developing an even deeper interest in, compassion and kindness for all of you and people in general! This helps sessions and networking run so much more smoothly. As always, I was the only person in my own way to accomplishing some of these personal milestones in my business, and I finally got out of my own way. 

This year feels big, guys. I have a lot of ideas and creations brewing: 

  1. More creative personal projects with whomever wants to tell a story!
  2. Collaborations with a few local businesses for events and mini sessions.
  3. More gifts! Shhh...don't tell.
  4. Publishing my poetry book (with videos of me reading some of those poems added to the site!
  5. Possibly adding some of my nature prints to a local art show.
  6. Creating a creative prompt card deck for anyone out there who feels the need for creative inspiration.
  7. Day in the Life series (to show more people's lives off!)

I could go on, but I don't want to give away everything! Needless to say, this is a year of creation and I look forward to you being a part of it. My biggest intention is Trust (in myself, in others, and the way life unfolds with or without my involvement). My personal intentions are Cleansed. Nourished. Radiant. Honest. Mystical. :)

Thank you to everyone involved in the success of 2017. Here's a slideshow recapping last year's work. My heart is full. You're all so beautiful.

2017 katy daixon photography Year In Review

Let's cheer each other on! What are your 2018 intentions/goals?!

Things I Did (or didn't do!) To Uplift Me (personally and in business) This Year

This year, I practiced these five intentions: Gratefulness. Feeling luminous. Trust. Vitality. Gracefulness.

Now, the winter solstice is upon us, and I inevitably spend the time, from that point through the end of December, reflecting on the past year and how I got here still in one piece and still practicing those five intentions I set for myself.

The goal is always happiness, right? But there are always dips, so I'm amazed when I do these reflections and find that there were things I kept doing (or not doing!) amidst both the highs and the lows to keep me sane and as healthy as possible. I'm curious if anything resonates with you!

1. Took B-School with Marie Forleo and continued implementing into my business a majority of the strategies I learned. These strategies helped me during times when burnout was imminent (fall portrait season September-November!). And they helped turn everything from strictly marketing to getting to know my worth and my tribe. So much more rewarding!

2. Said, "No." This one was rough and challenging, but creating boundaries with friends and family was incredibly important to maintaining a relationship with myself. And I needed a better relationship with myself this year after all the loss I experienced last year.

3. Watched Friends. This is my go-to show to zone out and laugh when I need something light and fluffy. :) Works like a charm.

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4. Hired an assistant! Most of you likely know at this point that I hired the beautiful Nicole to assist me with administrative and marketing things two days a week. Life saver. The growth of this business magnified intensely after she joined me. Grateful. 

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5. Light yoga daily. Stretching my body is integral to not only my physical self but my mental and spiritual self, too. I don't do anything rigorous or lengthy. I usually spend about 10-20min on my mat. Resets and uplifts me every time.

6. Journaled. Every morning. Usually for up to an hour. I understand journaling isn't always for the faint of heart, but if you need to dig in and get to know yourself...this is the #1 tactic. Hands down. Don't know where to start, REACH OUT TO ME! I love writing and want more people writing! <3

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7. Listened religiously to Tremors by Sohn and the soundtrack to Stranger Things.

8. Drank Water. Water. Water. Cuz...water. If you've ever met me in person, you've likely seen my mason jar water baby. ;) And you've likely asked jokingly if it's moonshine. Nope. Elixir of life is what it is.

9. Put my phone on Do Not Disturb and power saving mode. Every night when I head to bed, the phone is out of my hands and away from my face so I can let go of other people's thoughts before falling asleep.

10. Stopped eating so much sugar. Hello. I'm Katy, and I'm a sugar addict. This isn't a joke. It's the truth. And it had to stop. My gut needs healing and healing doesn't happen with sugar. The clarity I feel after a few days without is tremendous. 

11. Walked. Whether to the lake, through the woods, or around my block, I got out for fresh air and natural light. Holy mood boost.

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12. Expressed gratitude and appreciation. For loved ones. For coffee. For my cats. For the sun. For the rain. For my illnesses (once I stopped being crabby about being sick) making me see that I required rest and stillness. For nourishing food. For my home. For candles. For clients. For creativity. For expression. For love. For growing pains. For darkness. For myself.

Right now, with the challenges we face socially and politically, gratitude is my saving grace. And with that, I want to express my overflowing gratitude for you: your love and support, your kindness, and your creativity. You keep this well-oiled machine running and so so worth it.

Have amazing holidays. See you in 2018!

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What did (or didn't!) you do to uplift yourself this past year?

Halloween in the Wimer House

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I'm a sucker for Hocus Pocus and my hubby loves munchin' on mini candy bars (yesterday was a mini Snickers), but today, as I come off of a 5 day illness and we move into Allhallowtide, I find my mind wondering away from the glorious kiddiness of this holiday to the ever present (and likely relatable) thoughts of those who've left us at times that may make sense and the many times that don't. A few weeks from now, it'll be a year that has passed since I received the phone call that my mother-in-law had died incredibly unexpectedly. Last year saw many beings leave, actually, and I'm sure it's the same for many of you, too. Cyber hugs to all who may be carrying grief.

So today, I keep this short. Instead of writing something lengthy, I'll head back into my work, but with a candle lit in memory of those I've lost, you've lost, and the world continues to lose as we navigate these weird times of darkness. Leave a candle lit yourselves over this Allhallowtide. All those extra lights will create warmth in this chill, too, so...super bonus. Love to you all this Halloween! Be safe.

Do Excuses Repress Clarity?

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This morning while journaling, I looked down at the little nugget of wisdom at the bottom of my Desire Map planner and read, Excuses repress clarity. For a minute, I really had to think about it.

Do excuses really repress clarity? Yeah...actually, I can see how they do.

My body tells me it needs to move, run, dance, walk, and then I say, "Yeah, but...I'm tired."

My mind tells me it needs silence because its overwhelmed by work or nagging tasks/chores (or for you moms out there, maybe your kids!), and then I say, "Yeah, but...sitting in silence is boring or a waste of time."

My spirit tells me it needs to connect with my lover or my grandma or a trusted friend, and then I say, "Yeah, but...I don't really have time."

How many times have you said: 

  • "I don't have time."
  • "I don't have enough money."
  • "I don't know enough yet."
  • "I don't have the necessary supplies/tools."
  • "I'm not ____ enough yet."

We all have these excuses. And they are starving us of the clarity we seek.

Think about it.

Dancing could help you sweat out all the pent up frustrations you have toward your job or relationship and lead you to a place of greater compassion, understanding, and acceptance.

Taking a few minutes of silence to rest your mind could lead you to the sudden realization that you are in fact unfairly overworked or that you could actually hire a babysitter every Friday to take time for yourself or your relationship or that silence is uncomfortable because it makes you remember you feel shitty and just need to do something about it.

Connecting with a loved one could provide you advice you seek for a nagging problem or heal any wounds between you and that other person that may be lingering.

The reason we make up excuses is because it's easier than clarity. Clarity sometimes brings with it more work. It means we actually need to show up, 100%, for ourselves or another person or our job. It means we might need to admit something about ourselves we don't feel like admitting. It means we may have realizations that hurt...like how it's time to let go of that friend who hasn't been kind or that the intimacy in your relationship is lacking and it's because you pulled away or that it's challenging for you to be the sole caretaker of the home and you wish you had more help.

But guess what? Growth isn't easy. You know the whole idea about the seed that has to crack its shell, force its way through the soil, and then fight the elements as it settles and strengthens its roots and grows through it all? That's you. That's the only way you'll grow...when you're uncomfortable and working through the shell, dirt, wind, and rain around you. 

Do it. Reach for clarity. And then hold tight. You'll thank yourself.

5 Ways That We Hide

Last week Thursday, two friends and I attended a presentation in Madison, WI about beauty called Dream Big: You Are Beautiful and It's Time for You to Believe It. First of all, the woman who did the presentation, Kyira Hauer, totally fucking rocked it. She is the founder of #ReclaimBeauty and an advocate of embracing ones authenticity. After telling her amazing story, she dug into the five ways that we hide our true selves. And they took me back because some of these five things were unexpected.

5 Ways of Hiding

  • Over-perfecting: trying to maintain a specific order; rigidity; not starting things until everything is perfect.
  • Over-spending: trying to keep up with the "extras" you need to keep up appearances. 
  • Over-analyzing: worrying too much about outcomes you have no control over the what-ifs
  • Over-caring: caring too much about what others think or how you fit in
  • Over-comparing: building yourself up or tearing yourself down based on subjective experience of others

I've definitely found myself hiding behind a number of these, but the biggest one is over-perfecting. Sometimes, I won't start things until conditions are right or I won't finish things until everything is up to my expectations. Sometimes, I'll adjust a piece of furniture in my house because it's askew! I can drive myself crazy with my rigidities and have even found myself blocking intimacy in times of deep rigidity and not wanting to break from my order of things. 

So, how can we see/show ourselves and see each other more?

Maybe it starts with acknowledging how we hide, and then we dig our way out of hiding by being vulnerable. That's what I did in today's video.

Okay. Talk to me.

Did one of those ways of hiding hit you? How do you hide? And how do you (or do you want to) dig your way out of hiding? Share with me in the comments. I'd love to hear from you.

 

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How A Random Act of Kindness Taught Me A Lesson

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Picture this: Me in my car, coming off of a bitch fest (to my patient husband) about my hard week ahead, and a little old lady, about 5ft tall, with a bit of a hunch to her shoulders and wearing a bedazzled baseball cap slowly but surely filling around FORTY 1 gallon jugs of water at the local flowing well. 

And there I sit, waiting, because she didn't want my help...

at first. 

This is where I think two things: Oh my god. We're going to be here forever, but then, Way to do it to it, lady!

Because I realize that she's actually filling those jugs herself, and probably has for quite some time. 

After about twenty minutes, I see that she's finished and now struggling to affix plastic bags newspapers come in to the mouths of the jugs missing caps, which is almost all of them. So I step in and help (along with a friend who happened to pull in at the same time as us) without permission this time, because FORTY jugs and an EIGHTY-some year old woman. 

She's beside herself with gratitude and proceeds to tell us her story.

Since her husband passed a few years ago, she's been coming to the well alone and filling these jugs herself because, "What else are you going to do? Drink Beloit's water?" There's a pause for laughter, and then she starts telling us about her bike that got stolen "by some punk kid" the other night and how she hopes insurance will cover it because she was just going to start riding again... AGAIN! She has photos to show us and details to describe the gloriousness that is this bike, which is pretty freaking awesome complete with three wheels and a basket. I tell her I hope that she finds her bike, or that she gets insurance to cover a new one so she can get out there and ride again, when she notices her suddenly organized trunk full of water jugs covered tightly with plastic bags. "Well that's the best organization I've ever seen! Thank you all so much for your help!"

As she fills up her McDonalds cup with water "for the ride home" while my husband pulls our 50 gallon jugs out of the car, she says, "I just love this water. It's worth the drive up here to get it. Next, I'll work up to getting those big jugs!"

I wave bye as she drives off and realize that I've forgotten about everything that frustrated me that morning. I love how I thought I was helping someone out that day only to be helped in return. I want to be that resilient, and not just when I'm eighty. Right now. This moment. Because it's literally all we have.

Have you had to practice resilience in your life? If so, what was your greatest challenge? Head down to the comments and share with us.

Remembering to Pause

Sunset over Rice Lake in Whitewater, WI

If you're from southern Wisconsin, then you know that yesterday was immaculate. There wasn't a cloud in the sky and the breeze was subtle. There was very little stirring except birds and katydids. I decided to take a breather from my busy day of editing and running errands at my favorite corner of the world: Dr. O.R. Rice Picnic Area in Whitewater, or as I like to call it, the Rice Lake peninsula.

While relaxing in the sun, I realized that I've been craving that stillness for months. I've spent the last year grieving the loss of six beings (I say beings because one of the six was my first kitty) and the last few weeks trying to figure out what to do with the energy happening in the world. And the world isn't even still right now! There are fires ablaze on the west coast and hurricanes hitting the east. The winds have been ripe with upheaval, shifts, and changes that haven't felt particularly good. But moving from summer to autumn isn't always the easiest transition, especially if natural disasters are occurring, because we're forced into a slower pace that makes us look inward.

I carry heaviness that begs to be let out, and I'm not really sure what to do about it. Detox? Retreat for a week? Stop working for a month? Some days, I feel like I could run until my feet bleed. But on days like yesterday, I could lay still forever. I devour the light every moment I get, but I'm having a hard time figuring out how to give the light back.

Why do I tell you all of this? Because I think it's important to recognize when we feel low and give ourselves the space to feel that. But I also want to know how you're dealing with the heaviness in your life. Do you leave room to pause? What do you do when you take a breather? If you feel like sharing what lifts you up on a particularly heavy day, drop a comment below. I'd love to learn your tricks.

You Are Human

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Copyright katy daixon photography 2014.

Yesterday turned out to be quite a productive day. At 4p, I actually sat at my desk wondering what the hell to do with myself! I was thinking, Well, this can't be true! But it was. I felt full of to-dos last week and weekend, and somehow, beginning Monday, I started with task #1 and kept flowing. How? you might ask. I don't freakin' know. It was magic. I wish I had a strategy. Perhaps my strategy was the common advice, "Take one day at a time" or it could've also been the fact that I word-vomited some anxieties, hangups, fears, etc. onto any willing ear. This is important, people! Get. That. Shit. Out.

I'm caught up, not feeling particularly stressed in any way, and am happy with the progress I'm making. Alas, there's always those few things that linger in the back of your mind. Here's my lovely list:

  1. Where does The Body Project go after its completion?
  2. Should I move TBP blog onto my business website?
  3. Should I reassess the way I run my business?
  4. How will I handle so much solitude on my solo trip to NC (for a family wedding at the end of the month)?

These are fun things, though! I like that this is where my brain is: progress, challenges, and passions. Pretty awesome.

I know one of my stresses has been acclimating to a new roommate, whose husband passed away three or so years ago. I have a tendency to over help, analyze, and offer as much advice as I can to those who are struggling with anything, but sometimes, those people simply need room to feel out their progress on their own. So, I have taken a step back from my usual pushing and shoving. I am here solely as a strength and guiding light. I will be nothing more. She knows life is waiting for her when she's ready.

I have recently let go of the idea that friendships are floundering when it's hard to keep in touch; I tend to take things like this personally. There's no need to be concerned about my place in other peoples' lives. I'm here, when they're ready. And I know that when I need a friend, it's important to find the one ready for me. Live and let live.

I miss my husband, but knew that all of our busyness this time of year was coming, so that transition has been a little easier to adjust to than other changes.

Yoga is detoxing me each week. I am learning how my lifestyle choices affect my workout and forgive myself on the days I just can't quite move or bend as fluidly. I find great strength in this forgiveness--understanding I am human and won't always be 100%.

This gloomy Wisconsin weather has suffocated me this past week, but I have used it for self-reflection, and it means I will only embrace, even more so, the sunny days ahead, as cliche as that sounds. I still do crave my feet in the soil, my body to the earth, and my face to the treetops and sky. I will honor Mother Nature and my connection to her energy the next warm, sunny day. For now, I feel the wind deep within, allow the bird chirps to flood my thoughts, and the scent of damp soil to saturate my lungs.

To those feeling stuck:

Upward Dream

Happy home
means nothing
to wild children.
Their feet need soil,
their hearts, the roots
beneath the earth.
Walls whisper
and doors thunder
an absence.
They press foreheads
against windows reflecting
faces trapped,
but their minds dance
on tree limbs reaching
upward, dream
of a time they will stand
on top of the world
and breathe it all out for good.

The tug and pull is beautiful, and I am learning to find the resting place in between--that place of peace--where everything is and nothing isn't. Allow yourself to go there, if only for a moment.

Copyright katy daixon photography 2014.
Copyright katy daixon photography 2014.
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