To Feeling Alive

Do you ever feel like you lose yourself in DOing and only being what others need?

That has been my lately. Along with existing with a lot of discomfort in my body for a few too many weeks now, and I don’t enjoy, nor accept very well, that discomfort. Who does?

All of this brings up wounds:

I’m inadequate.
I don’t do enough.
I will never be relevant.
I need too much.
I AM too much.
I expect too much.
I need to grow up and be an adult.
I’m only valued in my relationship for my sexualness/physical attractiveness.

Who else has been here? Who else has been steeped in those challenges and blocks, feeling taken for granted, disconnected, irritable, not valued, on auto-pilot?

One of the quickest things that works: GO TO NATURE!

Let it slow you down, narrow the little you and broaden the big you, and remind you how beautiful life is. It’s where those magical synchronicities occur.

Let nature awaken you to the greater picture of your life.

My bigger picture? I’m in pieces. Parts of me have shattered, fallen away, cracked, or are clinging on for dear life. Sound familiar?

The second I wrote that, a man caught a fish who thrashed against the pressure of the line pulling him forward as the fisherman reeled him in. After its removed from the hook and released back to the water, do parts of that fish remember getting snagged and dragged? Or does it fall back into the rhythm of itself and the water, continuing its life from a place of deep knowing that it’s still swimming?

Is that truly how we integrate all our pieces to feel whole again despite the discomforts along the way? Simply live?

What makes you feel ALIVE?